Wednesday, May 11, 2011

End of semester notes

I guess the most prominent thing about this last school semester was the massive lack of preparation, driveh, and all other things leading to school success in our students. Across many depts, there was a general malaise and massive absences. I'm not sure, because spring always seems jacked up to me. However, massive funding cuts and fear of money issues may be affecting people's ability to focus. No idea, but its been bad.

MS-wise, it's been a weird couple of months. I may be feeling some emotional lability-- lots of anger and depressive moods. The Bear got on Paxil, but not me. ON the other hand, other things have been causing stress and grief... but there is some kind of change in how I perceive my MS. I think I am feeling mortal and scared. I've had a good 1.5 years, but my clinical trial ends in a few months or so and I am feeling rather vulnerable. I have heard that's possible, maybe prior to a relapse. I also think it has something to do with hating where I live and work.

There's been some good news on the MS research front, and of course the Ocrelizumab trial is really awesome. I have been tripping over words again, but I still feel ok except for fatigue. That's pretty constant, but I do have 2.5 weeks off before summer jams. 8 weeks of summer classes, 6 classes if they all make. OY.

I need a change...perhaps a journey abroad to teach. Whatever it is, I hope it's kind, because I'm not sure how much I can handle right now!